TWENTY ONE

2NE1

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I’ve been waiting since the day I heard that group name to be able to finally say that I am, in fact, 2NE1.

And what a time to be grateful.

Life’s full of ups and downs and while I’d like to wallow in self-pity and count my misery as much as the next girl; I’ve just turned twenty-one and hey, it is good to be alive :)

1.       FAMILY

The single greatest and most important thing in my life, for sure, is my family.

Oh wow how I love you guys. Whether we’re on holiday, just having a simple dinner together or hanging out playing sports or chilling and watching a movie at home – I’m having a good time. We have amazing chemistry and if I might say so myself, we’re hilarious. Of course there are quiet dinners and sometimes someone is having a bad day but man, are we awesome :D

Mummy – There’s no secret, you have to do the dirty work in the family. You know nobody’s a fan of the nagging party pooper but you know you have to do it for our sake. You try really hard to make us laugh, even if at your expense. You impart useful (although lengthy :P) advice when we need to hear it. Like I’ve read somewhere before; there’s no such thing as quality time for a mother. You are there at every step of our lives. There is not a moment you missed out on. I can never repay you but I’ll never stop working to do exactly that. Thank you so much. I love you <3

Daddy – I’ll be honest. You’re very often overseas and sometimes may not get our jokes and jests. But we know you work very hard for this family and that you love us very much. I miss the days when you, mummy and the three of us would just hang in our bedroom every night before we slept. I remember you massaging out feet for us when we asked because you’re so good at it. Those were good times. But we still have good times; good, different times. We talk more now and at dinner you get in on the slapstick, comedic action. I love you <3

Zhen – You must be the one person I’ve spoken to the most in my life. I’ll never forget the nights we spent in my room, exchanging pictures, laughing at the funnies and gushing at the hotties. We’ve talked about the people who’ve upset us in life, and we’ve also been those people in each other’s lives. You’ve grown up a lot and so have I. But somewhere in my mind I like to revisit the times when I was still your BFF and you were mine. Those were the happiest times of my life. Actually, we still share those moments, but we don’t label them anymore. That’s just proof of how much of a perfect fit you are in my life. And I don’t have anymore of these, but effortlessly and inevitably, you still are my BFF, even if I try to deny it. I love you <3

En – Well, very obviously (it’s staring at me in the face) we’ve not always been best pals. But also, there have been many instances where I’ve felt the need to help you, protect you and connect with you. Growing up you’ve been a mischievous little elf and I’ve been the cold, intolerant ogre. But now that we’re older I think we’re slowly understanding how our relationship works. I’m glad and proud of you; you’re a diplomatic, funny young girl now who I’d like to think, is not a complete b*tch like many teenage girls are nowadays. Even if we don’t always click, I’m glad to have you as a sister. Be good. Love you <3

Charmaine – You’ve always been like a sister to me; from when we were snatching tables as a kid to when we snapped at each other after getting cranky while making covers lol! You’re hilarious and you’ve brought me so much laughter and happiness all these years. And after our backpacking trip I think it’s sealed, that you and I are at a stage where we are completely comfortable at being totally silent and honest (and cranky :P) with each other. And that’s amazing. You’re definitely one of my BFFs and I only wish I make you laugh as much as you make me. But then again I don’t know why I just find everything you and Zhen say really funny :D Love you very much !

Popo – Well, she’s not gonna read this but she’s a funny, lovely, caring little lady who raised me to be the person I am today. Though my one regret about her raising me is how much she fed me as a kid D: She’s a strong woman with a brave heart, raising her 4 children single handedly and having them grow into such amazing individuals. LOVE LOVE LOVE <3

Tai Yee – Where to start? You’ve always been a natural at being with kids – who could forget the ‘Tai Yee Darling’ era? You were there at some of the crucial points in my life, not to mention the past year papers you readily supplied me with for the public exams. Haha. Thank you so much for your love and support <3

Sam Yee – You’re the trendiest, busiest super mum I know and I still can’t believe how much effort you put into the decorations and cake for my birthday party this year. You’ve always been caring, thoughtful and you love showering us with gifts. You’re one cool aunt :) Thank you so much! Love you <3

E-Shyuen and E-Va – you lovely girls have grown up and I’m sorry I don’t play with you guys like I used to. But one day we’ll all be able to enjoy grown up girly stuff like shopping and talking about boys :D But of course tickle fights and waking us up in bed will always be welcomed :) Love you guys <3

And of course, all my other relatives get my love :3

2.       FRIENDS

Through different phases of life, I’ve made and lost many good friends, but some I’m hoping will stand the test of time. I don’t think I’ll be explicit here but I’ll mention some nicknames so you know that you’re important to me :)

Okay so the nicknames are based on the ones I’ve given you in my phone. I’m excluding your real names here unless they become completely unidentifiable without them. If you’re doubtful you can ask me personally which one is yours :) The sequence is from oldest to most recent

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           Mars (The first friend I made in Form Four. You a crazy bitch that is loud, loving and awesome. Lotsa good memories of our favourite books, choir and Italiannies. Love you <3)

-          Big Butt (Who would’ve thought such a beautiful friendship would’ve blossomed from an unassuming text? I remember being in physiotherapy at the end of Form 4 when I decided to randomly text you about some emotional problems I was facing and you randomly decided to listen. From watching me cry over my low marks for chemistry to me watching Harry Potter twice just to please you on your birthday, we’ve had some good times :) <3)

-          Wabbit (You’re one unique character and you’ve grown on me. And like always in our friendship, I’ll keep this short and sweet and let our actions do the talking :)

-          Pink Panther (You’ve made me feel very comfortable in our friendship for the length of our studies together. You’ve inspired me in many ways and I love the wacky stuff we liked and shared then. You’ll always be an MVP here <3)

-          Lizzie Crazee (Hanging out with you is so easy :) Can I just say that you’re awesome and I’m always humbled by how you always choose not to talk about people behind their backs? You’re an angel <3)

-          Strawbs (You’re a rainbow and TNT packed into a tiny little girl. You have a natural talent at being funny and making friends is so easy for you la I’m so jealous :P You’ll always be my shortcake :D <3)

-          CLP (Ish CLP. Lol. You’ve become a very lovely lady now with your nice long hair and dainty nails but you’ll always be the CLP who knocks over stuff and stacks up highlighters with me in Chem tuition >:D <3)

-          Popiah (We’ve been through a lot, no duh. With the karaoke sessions and tennis and food and music love, there are few people who’ve made it so close to my introverted heart like you <3)

-          Cherpoops (The funny, easily well-liked girl who just instils strength in others when they need it. I hope to be able to tell you errthang I need to when we’re in UK cuz I needs someone to handle my emotional purges from time to time and you have been selected *rubs hands together* heheheh. Prepare for the food-dropping good times <3)

-          Mummy (I’ll never forget the time mummy packed a lovely meal of sandwiches for us to go to Bangkok with :D And how you naturally take everyone under your wing. Plus how many people can boast about having such a gorgeous and fit mum like mine? :3 <3)

-          Tigress (You’re the believer :) the cheerleader that always waves the poms and yells ‘WE CAN DO THIS!’ Hahaha <3 I’ll give you lots of hugs and feed you well while we’re in UK :) And hopefully we’ll see many Chocolate Cakes ;D if you know what I mean <3)

-          Crazy Cat (My purring chum with les boobs of steel. I don’t remember when exactly but I knew we would be close much earlier on. Thanks for pumping up my tyre of confidence when I needed it <3 Love you babe)

-          Zombie Chicken (We the masterminds of Kings vs Divas man. We’ve had high, low and intimate moments. Love you, you weird and wonderful little chickadee <3)

-          Chubby Cheeks (You’re a laughing machine. Seriously. And an amazing workaholic. I thank God for sending you to us in time for our resignation seriously. Fighting ! <3)

-          Jiggly (Although it’s only been less than 4 months, you’ve been able to make your mark in my list of reliable friends. We need more heart to heart talks but for now I will thank you for working hard in making our Friday hangouts work. We’ve had a lot of food and jammings and conversations since that Open Mic :) best decision I made <3)

-          Le Chef (You should go give talks on life man. SOME PEOPLE need to take a leaf from your book of life philosophies and not take things so seriously. And you should know that it’s really cool that you know so much about everything. You’re one cool dude man <3)

-          Sungjae (You’re talented and dedicated to your craft and I want you to know that I think it’s amazing, what you can do. Now, just try not to think so much about what people will think about you k? Cuz if they’re mean, who the poop cares about what they think right? It’s what I THINK that matters :D Hahaha. Kidding. We tackle life one stage at a time k? You’re like my lil’ bro idk why heh <3)

3.       MY... ATTRIBUTES?

I’ve been compared a lot to many people in my life; by others and by myself. And they have always been discouraging, dark moments. But today is not a day for that.

I’ve been generously called pretty by family, friends and strangers, but also have been labelled indirectly as unpretty in public once.

I’ve been told by friends and strangers I have an amazing musical talent and gained fans on media sharing sites, but have also fallen short at auditions and performances.

I’ve been loved and had so many awesome memories with people I’ve gotten to know, but have also been in awkward situations and acted horribly towards some people.

Everyday I’d like to think I become a slightly better person.

Okay I don’t have a good end to this post.

So disappointing.

Yeah, so I’m wrapping up.

Officially 21 woots <3