Work Hard, Play Hard, Keep Partyin' Like It's Your Job, Oh

CHARMAINE AND I ROCKING OUT TO OUR ACOUSTIC VERSION OF
PLAY HARD BY DAVID GUETTA FEAT AKON AND NE-YO

I always just loved this song and I got Char to get on the boat with me and we were just messing around with the melody and I'm totally happy with what we came up with
Miss jamming with this crazy ass girl

Which Would You Choose: Popularity or Talent ?

So it's no secret that I'm a low profile kid.

Being an introvert and having a fear of mingling in crowds only lets you go so high up the popularity hierarchy.

But I ain't complaining. I love where I am. I have the perfect family who make me happy, the nicest, funniest, most awesome close friends and friends who I have occasional chats with. All is good in the world.

Until it comes down to when it interferes with my passion for music.

I've loved music before I knew I did. But that story is for another time.

I absolutely love nothing more than being at the piano, phone with me in case I need the key of a song I'm currently in love with (regrettably, I'm not pitch perfect), notebook and pen in my hand, ready to jot down the chords I find by ear for future reference. Ask my family; I can spend up to hours at the piano.

Only in the last few years have I started making covers and posting them to YouTube. And making good music I'm contented with is one thing; making music that the majority of the public likes and expressly shows affection for is another.

That's something I've come to realize. This inevitable element called popularity comes into play, unfortunately when situations don't even call for it.

Take a pretty good photo and an amazing photo for example. A pretty good photo, if taken by someone who parties/mingles/is just socially awesome would mean tons of recognition, likes and shares on FB and admiration. The amazing photo, which deserves more likes, if anything, gets half or less if in the hands of someone less obvious in the social scene.

This injustice has haunted not only me, but my other music/art-making friends.

In some of these conversations of ours we also acknowledge that we don't make the kind of music the general public are into nowadays (a whole lot of indie and acoustic stuff). We're more for the melodramatic.

I'd wondered if I should give up on doing what I liked and making music more people enjoy, but the thought of it sent shivers down my spine. It really was like getting a cat to bark (alright, not impossible, I've seen the video of the cat barking). It was unnatural, like trying to be someone you're not. And I've had my share of that, thank you very much.

So when I heard of a singing competition organized by Malaysian students for Malaysian students in the UK, my interests were piqued. When I further heard that only the most liked videos will get through, some of that interest disintegrated.


I've gotten many personal messages on FB from acquaintances and friends to help 'like' a photo, video, entry in these competitions to better their chances at "winning". And most of the time, I do give them a 'like' or two. I guess I like helping people out and 'liking' them wouldn't cost me anything but a few seconds so I did, and I'd always wish them good luck.

So back to the singing competition. Already my social hierarchy was laughing at my singing abilities, knowing the ride was not going to be smooth if I took it on. But I did nevertheless, only because I didn't want to regret not doing it later.

And no sooner had I sent in my entry, I wanted to pull out immediately. How could I top the 'likes' on some videos some of my musically inclined friends and I regarded as pretty good but hardly outstanding?

I lamely shared it once on FB and nodded, thinking to myself, well, that's that.

And really, if I were in this alone, I would not have gone beyond 200 likes at most. But I have special friends who don't cease to amaze me. Many shared my video again and in certain FB groups but a certain few individuals took the time (their time to sleep and do other things for themselves) to help me obtain more likes. The extent to which they went just to help little ol' me was a shock albeit a pleasant one to me.

In the end, my video was one of the most liked and I am through to the next round.

It's overwhelming. Yet, something was nagging in the back of my mind.

There were certain participants I really wanted to see go to the next round as well, even if that means I'd have stiffer competition. I even shared some of the videos, knowing I was digging my own grave. What was I doing? These people are popular, good-looking, talented people. I'm barely one of those three, why am I doing this to myself?

I have yet to take a good look at my competitors but no doubt some of whom I have are good and I have my work cut out for me. But it was also unfair that some really talented people did not make the cut only because they were a little or a lot short on likes.

Also, around the time the results were finalised, I was made to feel like I, me, the one who doesn't put myself out there where people are, got through basically because I was "popular".

Bullcrap, man. If anything, you definitely own the social hierarchy. Who am I? I'm the girl who prefers the piano to the clubs.

What was the worst was that I was made to feel that my singing was not a winning factor.

I've been through a lot with myself in terms of my vocal abilities and tone. The stages of which I've loved and been absolutely abhorred with my voice is nothing you can imagine. At one point, I wanted to give up on singing.

But the disgusted part of myself can only hold up for so long when my natural, undeniable passion for music and making it starts to receive life again.


I'm back b******.

So although I was swayed a little by a comment that tried to drive home that my accomplishment was solely due to my non-existent popularity that exceeds yours, don't you forget that I can sing too.

Though I'm sure to stay away from popularity contests from now on.
Yes, I see the logic behind having these things but maybe you should try to even out the playing field -make the votes 30% of the criteria for winning, the other 70% should be by judges or your own committee. This is how k-pop competition shows determine their winners (although these methods have also been abused).


Anyway, this is a big thank you and explanatory note on how I feel about the competition.

Thanks to all who liked my video and your compliments have been kind <3

And of course, I'll return the favour next time. Don't hesitate to ask. 

Because I know that feel, bro/girl.

And in any case, if it wasn't already obvious, talent trumps popularity for me.

And I'd like to refer to a quote whose author and exact words escape me but it goes something like 'If you're gonna do something, might as well do something one person will like', that one person being yourself peeps.

Do things because they make you happy (Y)

PS: The video I sent in as my audition entry

Lemony Yolk Pasta

Lemony Yolk Pasta

(This recipe serves one, takes about 18-20 mins)

The title says it all, really.

So it was after a cooking demonstration in the kitchen one day, and there was an egg yolk left over, unwanted in the ice cream made. I was about to make pasta for lunch and so I made the lonely egg yolk mine, and what an amazing decision it was :D

I love sour savoury food so this accidental recipe is one of my favourites. You can add a tomato or two but I prefer it like this to really savour the creaminess of the yolk and the gentle tang of the lemon.

* When the ingredients are this simple, a more generous amount of salt and pepper is important.

Ingredients (prepare all before cooking):

- Pasta (however much one serving is for you)

- 1 egg yolk

- Half an onion, sliced

- A quarter of a lemon (This is just enough for it to be tangy but not actually sour)

- 1 or 2 cloves of garlic, minced

- Olive oil

- Salt

- Ground black pepper

Recipe:

1. Boil the pasta. Instructions here (if you need them). Start step 2 only after the pasta is ready

2. Sautee the onion and garlic with 2 tablespoons of olive oil in a pan over medium heat till they’re almost the way you like them. Add salt and pepper to taste.

3. Turn the heat all the way down to a low heat. Add the pasta to the pan and stir-fry for about 10 seconds. * If you boiled the pasta for too long till it is soft, the strands are very likely to break apart so I suggest making your pasta al dente *

4. Add the egg yolk onto the pasta and break it, constantly stirring the ingredients. This step should take about a minute over low heat.

5. Squeeze the lemon over the ingredients, mix well and add salt and pepper to taste. This step should take less than a minute.

6. Serve and enjoy :)

Hope you like it :D
Happy omnom-nomming !

How to Prepare Pasta

How to prepare pasta 

Just the very basics of a good pasta meal :)

Different people prefer different textures for their pasta.

Myself, I like my pasta al dente. I believe this means they are still tangy and not too soft.

Also, the pasta for me, on its own should be a little salty. As most of my pasta dishes are not exactly gravy(ful? They’re pretty dry), I make sure the pasta on its own is alright to the taste.

As for the olive oil, it’s really there just so that if you’re gonna keep the pasta to cool on its own for a while, it doesn’t clump together like udon you get from the supermarket. But because I mostly immediately dump my pasta into the sauce after they’re done, I seldom use olive oil.

Ingredients:

- Pasta

- Salt

- Olive oil

Recipe:

1. Fill a pot with water. Not too much, just enough for the pasta. Put it on the stove on high heat. And don’t worry about spaghetti that sticks out of the pot, they all go down eventually (muahahaha). You should keep the lid on so that the water boils faster.

2. When the water begins to boil, add salt to taste. I make pasta a lot so I add as much as I feel is enough. So you should add till you get used to the amount you need according to how much water you use. I can’t put an exact quantity on it. Add a tablespoon or two of olive oil.

3. Chuck the pasta in and just wait. Spaghetti usually takes longer to cook compared to short pasta like fusilli or macaroni.

4. Because the heat is on high, if the lid is closed, the water bubbles up considerably fast, so keep the lid off and constantly pick up a pasta or two to try.

5. When the pasta is as chewy/soft as you like, drain’em. If you’ll be keeping them aside for a while, you can chose to soak them in cold water so they don’t stick, but if you added enough olive oil while boiling you shouldn’t have to.

So there you have it :)
Good ol’ pasta

Check out mah sauce recipes :)

Who's the Most Important Person In Your Life?

 This question was first properly presented to me during a Form 5 Physics tuition class (don't ask why, the teacher was a philosopher who did a handstand in class once) and I gave it careful consideration. 

Myself? 

Pain, pleasure, the only thing that really matters to anyone or compels to do anything at all is if the consequence is imminent on that person. Then I realised, oh wait, I'd walk through a spider infested cave (I have arachnophobia) than let my mum have to touch a slithery serpent (she has ophidiophobia). 

So my answer was my mother. Granted, there are a few other individuals I'd make an equally huge sacrifice for but that's irrelevant today -the 28th of October, because it's the birthday of the most important person in my life.

I thought to myself, I could wish my mum and tell her how great a human being she is... but hey, why not let the whole world know? My mum, the modest little lady that she is, always downplays her talents/quirks/amazingness anyway.

Let's begin !

1. My mum has a sense of humour

Taken at the trick art museum in I-City. We were adamant in not making the same, stereotypical poses people did in these places. What my mum chose to do here tickled me nicely. I was pleasantly impressed.

 Growing up, humour has been an essential gluing agent in our family bonding. Everyone in our family has a unique sense of humour and together, the chemistry and intimacy I feel is beyond comparison. My mum is very well aware her sense of humour is too grown up and sometimes unfunny to us kids but that never hindered her in always trying to give us a good laugh. Now that is sacrifice; at her expense.

Not to mention, her laugh is a hearty one that tickles your eardrums which makes you always want to make her laugh. Like, so hard that she snorts by accident.

Funny sounding words or noises work quite well.

2. She loves food

Omnom-noming and looking all pretty and fancy at Advanti on a special ocassion

 Our family is a huge fan of nosh; you can tell by our average size. And while there's no doubt as to my mum's culinary expertise, she knows we love certain food you just have to go out for. I love when she could've made dinner but she heard you say lately that you've been craving something and she wiggles her eyebrows at you, suggesting we go eat there instead. The idea may be incredulous, but simple notions like this make us feel all warm and cozy inside. 

She also goes out of her way to get something that she knows makes you happy, like, bubble tea or sushi.

Needless to say, she's memorised the favourite food of her little piglets (daddy included).

3. She's a sporting woman

Mum and dad flexing at a breakfast in Hong Kong

She and my dad were sporty people in their teens and adolescent-hood. We go play tennis once in a while as a family. She knows the importance of being healthy and encourages us to play a sport or two, of course, reminding us that studies still take priority. She'd very often go to the nearby lake for a morning walk with my grandma. I never regretted all the few times I decided to drag myself out of bed for those. Nothing like alone time and long conversations with one of your best friends around a huge pool of water.

4. She's gentle, understanding, forgiving yet solid as a rock

Carrying a relative's adorable baby, ever the face of youth and peaches and Spring and blossoms and pretty, feminine yet strong things.

She's been through a lot of drama as is expected with life. But the nicest people tend to encounter the worst kind of monsters disguised as family or friends and my mum has been through a ton of poop. Still, one thing my mum never does is hold grudges. She believes in second chances and we all know how difficult it is to do that.

In emotionally charged situations, she keeps her cool and carries on. You won't see this woman crumble.

5. She's intelligent and hardworking

Doing just what the cameragirl desires

She worked as a HR manager until I turned 7 or so. She gave it up to be closer to her children and also to make sure every vital step they took in their important childhood happened under her nose. She never really got back to work although we all know how much she loved and misses it. She says it's not a big deal, but she's also mentioned the things she missed about work. 

Nevertheless, she keeps herself updated with the news; be it political, business or general knowledge. She's never short on things to say in a conversation; I'm not even talking about small talk or meaningless gossip. She holds her own in chats with the aunties and more serious conversations with the uncles. She knows what's up when we go to see people about a certain business because she makes sure she does her homework beforehand. 

These are my parents; umbrellas at the ready at the slight sound of thunder. 

I've got a lot to learn from them.

Also, lazy is just not a word she's familiar with. Incredibly disciplined and hardworking, I don't think she even slacked with homework in primary school.

6. She's a lovely, chatty person

Again, being the object of my lens' affection

Unlike myself, a self-proclaimed introvert who is mostly socially awkward, my mother is a natural in social situations. She always talks to my friends when they come over, making sure they have a drink if they want one and that I don't let them do their own dishes. Whether she's giving Janet's friends a ride home, welcoming Jenny's project partners to the study or thanking my friends for the ride home, she's there with a smile and a friendly question. With friends and relatives, she's one of the people laughing the loudest or the one to approach the ones less comfortable in said social settings.

Poised with a lovely, welcoming smile on her lips, no social event is intimidating to her.

We're at McDonald's drive-through and she manages a brief conversation with the cashier.

7. She's selfless

My 21st birthday with the cake she and my aunt designed together

She always wants you to be happy; but she still wants you to study though she knows that doesn't make you very happy.

She likes to be able to give you good food; but she also tells you when you're getting a little chubby.

She doesn't bother with getting credit. Selfless really is the word. Your happiness is her concern.

8. She won't give up on you

At the trick art museum in I-City. Jenny's rear causes havoc that my mum tries to contain

When you seem to come from different planets and she is unable to get to you or help you in the first place, she won't stop trying till she is able to help. She ponders over matters for a long time if she is unable to.

9. She's a vital piece in our awesome family puzzle

Our family with popo <3

Do I really need to explain this?

10. She's my best friend

Me back-hugging mummy in Awana Kijal

 I've had people tell me 'family doesn't count' when I say my best friends are my mum, my sister and my cousin.

And it may not be apparent, but I'm incredibly lucky. All this time I thought everyone was close to their family, that family was everyone's sanctuary. I only appreciated that this is not the case half of the time.

That said, I have absolutely no qualms in saying that my mum is one of my best friends.

In all the time we've spent together, we've shared secrets, had laughs at the ridiculous bits of life, cried over mistakes and the list is endless.

I always enjoy those mornings or long afternoons we have to ourselves; she'd take me along when she had to pay the bank a visit and we'd have a snack after because, well, snack.

- THE END -

Mummy and daddy getting excited over some Taiwanese sweet potato :)

Mummy showing the whale some love at the trick art museum in I-City

On mother's day; just some girls who really love and appreciate the woman in the middle

Mummy, daddy and I all smiles

Marina Bay Sands

My favourite people

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY ! <3

IN CASE IT WASN'T CLEAR IN THIS BLOG POST, YOU'RE AMAZING !

I MISS YOU A LOT

THIS IS YOUR FIRST BIRTHDAY WITHOUT ME FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE I WAS BORN BUT, IT WILL BE THE SECOND LAST YOU'LL HAVE IT WITHOUT ME

AFTER I COMPLETE THE BAR, WE'LL ALWAYS CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY TOGETHER

HAVE AN AWESOME TIME AND TELL ME ABOUT IT AFTER :)

LOVE,

WEI WEI

Let Out the Beast (Cover by Jessrockstah, DORKyungsoo, kezs, Onlaykai)

Woots check out the four of us singing and rapping and loving EXO <3

Machine by EXO (Instrumental Piano Version by Jessie)

Broken Strings Cover Collaboration (Dzaim and Jessie)

Broken String by James Morrison 

and Nelly Furtado (A Cover)

First collab with the lead singer of Pepper the Band yay :D 

Finally found someone who would do this song with me

Dzaim 

as 

male vocalist

guitarist

Jessie

as 

female vocalist

Charmaine

as

camera girl

assistant director

joke-cracker

Joel

as

critic/director

Kay, Julius, Nicholas

as

audience which gave us lots of pressure

EXO - BLACK PEARL (DUET COVER)

EXO - BLACK PEARL (DUET COVER)

MANDARIN + KOREAN COVER BY JESSIE AND SHILAH

PIANO, ARRANGEMENT AND MANDARIN VOCALS BY JESSIE

KOREAN VOCALS BY SHILAH

TWENTY ONE

2NE1

:D

I’ve been waiting since the day I heard that group name to be able to finally say that I am, in fact, 2NE1.

And what a time to be grateful.

Life’s full of ups and downs and while I’d like to wallow in self-pity and count my misery as much as the next girl; I’ve just turned twenty-one and hey, it is good to be alive :)

1.       FAMILY

The single greatest and most important thing in my life, for sure, is my family.

Oh wow how I love you guys. Whether we’re on holiday, just having a simple dinner together or hanging out playing sports or chilling and watching a movie at home – I’m having a good time. We have amazing chemistry and if I might say so myself, we’re hilarious. Of course there are quiet dinners and sometimes someone is having a bad day but man, are we awesome :D

Mummy – There’s no secret, you have to do the dirty work in the family. You know nobody’s a fan of the nagging party pooper but you know you have to do it for our sake. You try really hard to make us laugh, even if at your expense. You impart useful (although lengthy :P) advice when we need to hear it. Like I’ve read somewhere before; there’s no such thing as quality time for a mother. You are there at every step of our lives. There is not a moment you missed out on. I can never repay you but I’ll never stop working to do exactly that. Thank you so much. I love you <3

Daddy – I’ll be honest. You’re very often overseas and sometimes may not get our jokes and jests. But we know you work very hard for this family and that you love us very much. I miss the days when you, mummy and the three of us would just hang in our bedroom every night before we slept. I remember you massaging out feet for us when we asked because you’re so good at it. Those were good times. But we still have good times; good, different times. We talk more now and at dinner you get in on the slapstick, comedic action. I love you <3

Zhen – You must be the one person I’ve spoken to the most in my life. I’ll never forget the nights we spent in my room, exchanging pictures, laughing at the funnies and gushing at the hotties. We’ve talked about the people who’ve upset us in life, and we’ve also been those people in each other’s lives. You’ve grown up a lot and so have I. But somewhere in my mind I like to revisit the times when I was still your BFF and you were mine. Those were the happiest times of my life. Actually, we still share those moments, but we don’t label them anymore. That’s just proof of how much of a perfect fit you are in my life. And I don’t have anymore of these, but effortlessly and inevitably, you still are my BFF, even if I try to deny it. I love you <3

En – Well, very obviously (it’s staring at me in the face) we’ve not always been best pals. But also, there have been many instances where I’ve felt the need to help you, protect you and connect with you. Growing up you’ve been a mischievous little elf and I’ve been the cold, intolerant ogre. But now that we’re older I think we’re slowly understanding how our relationship works. I’m glad and proud of you; you’re a diplomatic, funny young girl now who I’d like to think, is not a complete b*tch like many teenage girls are nowadays. Even if we don’t always click, I’m glad to have you as a sister. Be good. Love you <3

Charmaine – You’ve always been like a sister to me; from when we were snatching tables as a kid to when we snapped at each other after getting cranky while making covers lol! You’re hilarious and you’ve brought me so much laughter and happiness all these years. And after our backpacking trip I think it’s sealed, that you and I are at a stage where we are completely comfortable at being totally silent and honest (and cranky :P) with each other. And that’s amazing. You’re definitely one of my BFFs and I only wish I make you laugh as much as you make me. But then again I don’t know why I just find everything you and Zhen say really funny :D Love you very much !

Popo – Well, she’s not gonna read this but she’s a funny, lovely, caring little lady who raised me to be the person I am today. Though my one regret about her raising me is how much she fed me as a kid D: She’s a strong woman with a brave heart, raising her 4 children single handedly and having them grow into such amazing individuals. LOVE LOVE LOVE <3

Tai Yee – Where to start? You’ve always been a natural at being with kids – who could forget the ‘Tai Yee Darling’ era? You were there at some of the crucial points in my life, not to mention the past year papers you readily supplied me with for the public exams. Haha. Thank you so much for your love and support <3

Sam Yee – You’re the trendiest, busiest super mum I know and I still can’t believe how much effort you put into the decorations and cake for my birthday party this year. You’ve always been caring, thoughtful and you love showering us with gifts. You’re one cool aunt :) Thank you so much! Love you <3

E-Shyuen and E-Va – you lovely girls have grown up and I’m sorry I don’t play with you guys like I used to. But one day we’ll all be able to enjoy grown up girly stuff like shopping and talking about boys :D But of course tickle fights and waking us up in bed will always be welcomed :) Love you guys <3

And of course, all my other relatives get my love :3

2.       FRIENDS

Through different phases of life, I’ve made and lost many good friends, but some I’m hoping will stand the test of time. I don’t think I’ll be explicit here but I’ll mention some nicknames so you know that you’re important to me :)

Okay so the nicknames are based on the ones I’ve given you in my phone. I’m excluding your real names here unless they become completely unidentifiable without them. If you’re doubtful you can ask me personally which one is yours :) The sequence is from oldest to most recent

-      

           Mars (The first friend I made in Form Four. You a crazy bitch that is loud, loving and awesome. Lotsa good memories of our favourite books, choir and Italiannies. Love you <3)

-          Big Butt (Who would’ve thought such a beautiful friendship would’ve blossomed from an unassuming text? I remember being in physiotherapy at the end of Form 4 when I decided to randomly text you about some emotional problems I was facing and you randomly decided to listen. From watching me cry over my low marks for chemistry to me watching Harry Potter twice just to please you on your birthday, we’ve had some good times :) <3)

-          Wabbit (You’re one unique character and you’ve grown on me. And like always in our friendship, I’ll keep this short and sweet and let our actions do the talking :)

-          Pink Panther (You’ve made me feel very comfortable in our friendship for the length of our studies together. You’ve inspired me in many ways and I love the wacky stuff we liked and shared then. You’ll always be an MVP here <3)

-          Lizzie Crazee (Hanging out with you is so easy :) Can I just say that you’re awesome and I’m always humbled by how you always choose not to talk about people behind their backs? You’re an angel <3)

-          Strawbs (You’re a rainbow and TNT packed into a tiny little girl. You have a natural talent at being funny and making friends is so easy for you la I’m so jealous :P You’ll always be my shortcake :D <3)

-          CLP (Ish CLP. Lol. You’ve become a very lovely lady now with your nice long hair and dainty nails but you’ll always be the CLP who knocks over stuff and stacks up highlighters with me in Chem tuition >:D <3)

-          Popiah (We’ve been through a lot, no duh. With the karaoke sessions and tennis and food and music love, there are few people who’ve made it so close to my introverted heart like you <3)

-          Cherpoops (The funny, easily well-liked girl who just instils strength in others when they need it. I hope to be able to tell you errthang I need to when we’re in UK cuz I needs someone to handle my emotional purges from time to time and you have been selected *rubs hands together* heheheh. Prepare for the food-dropping good times <3)

-          Mummy (I’ll never forget the time mummy packed a lovely meal of sandwiches for us to go to Bangkok with :D And how you naturally take everyone under your wing. Plus how many people can boast about having such a gorgeous and fit mum like mine? :3 <3)

-          Tigress (You’re the believer :) the cheerleader that always waves the poms and yells ‘WE CAN DO THIS!’ Hahaha <3 I’ll give you lots of hugs and feed you well while we’re in UK :) And hopefully we’ll see many Chocolate Cakes ;D if you know what I mean <3)

-          Crazy Cat (My purring chum with les boobs of steel. I don’t remember when exactly but I knew we would be close much earlier on. Thanks for pumping up my tyre of confidence when I needed it <3 Love you babe)

-          Zombie Chicken (We the masterminds of Kings vs Divas man. We’ve had high, low and intimate moments. Love you, you weird and wonderful little chickadee <3)

-          Chubby Cheeks (You’re a laughing machine. Seriously. And an amazing workaholic. I thank God for sending you to us in time for our resignation seriously. Fighting ! <3)

-          Jiggly (Although it’s only been less than 4 months, you’ve been able to make your mark in my list of reliable friends. We need more heart to heart talks but for now I will thank you for working hard in making our Friday hangouts work. We’ve had a lot of food and jammings and conversations since that Open Mic :) best decision I made <3)

-          Le Chef (You should go give talks on life man. SOME PEOPLE need to take a leaf from your book of life philosophies and not take things so seriously. And you should know that it’s really cool that you know so much about everything. You’re one cool dude man <3)

-          Sungjae (You’re talented and dedicated to your craft and I want you to know that I think it’s amazing, what you can do. Now, just try not to think so much about what people will think about you k? Cuz if they’re mean, who the poop cares about what they think right? It’s what I THINK that matters :D Hahaha. Kidding. We tackle life one stage at a time k? You’re like my lil’ bro idk why heh <3)

3.       MY... ATTRIBUTES?

I’ve been compared a lot to many people in my life; by others and by myself. And they have always been discouraging, dark moments. But today is not a day for that.

I’ve been generously called pretty by family, friends and strangers, but also have been labelled indirectly as unpretty in public once.

I’ve been told by friends and strangers I have an amazing musical talent and gained fans on media sharing sites, but have also fallen short at auditions and performances.

I’ve been loved and had so many awesome memories with people I’ve gotten to know, but have also been in awkward situations and acted horribly towards some people.

Everyday I’d like to think I become a slightly better person.

Okay I don’t have a good end to this post.

So disappointing.

Yeah, so I’m wrapping up.

Officially 21 woots <3